Love sick dog

I'm starting to hate who I am turning out to be. Even, my personal dream or goal has no bearing anymore. It's starting to feel like what she wants for the relationship is the only way to go. It's sad, I know that I love her but I'm about to do something that she would hate. 


Where do I begin? Agh! Please, give the courage to let go. I'm too broken already. I deserve a bit of happiness, right? I'm trying to make myself happy naman eh. I wish I could disappear na lang.