Being True to One's Self....

Sometimes even if were already of age. We're still in the process of finding who we really are? Asking ourselves the real purpose why we are here? Why we are made and to whom are we matched? These are just a few of the questions that baffles my mind and also of my whole being... Most of my batchmates are successful in their chosen and respective professions now and what about me? What about me that i can't decide about what i really like to do with my life? Am i happy with just having temporary jobs and kissing my employers ass just to extend my contract with them.... What's there for me? What's in store for me when i jump out of my box? Oh yeah, maybe i'm afraid of losing or moving away from my comfort zone... yeah, maybe that's it.

Being too comfortable with our own box is really draining, i do have this urge to take the risk... or maybe, i'm just lying to myself... being a slave to the corporate world is really not my line. I want to take my own risks, do my own business, learn more by going to different places ( different sceneries). Damn, even my sexuality is a lie. My parents wants me to hook up with this nice, preppy and well - educated guy, they want me to date him because their reason " they are not getting any younger... they want to see their first grand child" Like hell!!!! no, this is not what i want...i am still young. I still have plans and places i want to see... Yes, i'm not attracted to men...maybe some i dislike.... and yes, i am a lesbian....