Hit me @ the Express

Love is the greatest demon of all. why so? it creates mishaps and sorrow after a short - term bliss. i am one of those who experienced this. i am one of those who keeps mumbling to themselves and cuss things not going the way they planned it. or the way i planned it...

i'm utterly digusted by seeing couples being mushy, whispering sweet nothings, holding hands and being together all the time, like there is no tomorrow. bitter? maybe i am, i guess i'm too fed up with failed relationships...better yet even flings does not work well for me. life is... if i am going to describe it in one word - crap.

my only friends in times of loneliness are a pack of ciggs and a bottle of beer. i pity myself...am i that invisible? is this the reason why my soulmate can't see me? o cmon, if this is a joke then i am not laughing. i feel the emptiness growing inside of me every minute, every waking day. wish this thing is like a computer. you can just shut it down...whenever your not feeling to use it anymore.

"oh yes...i am the great pretender...pretending that I am doing well..."

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agreeably sound

"It was not just an act. It was an emotion. It was everything we felt combined and locked together in a kiss, in our lips. It was love, trust, companionship, gratefulness, peace, relief, security, joy, and friendship, all in one kiss."

- grabe... it's like hearing myself...i've been there..same situation...been there..done that...and it's like hell!!! hurts a lot...until it just numbs you...you could not imagine you felt all this...for A GIRL...-